Archive for May, 2010

where I’m at (5/22/10)

May 22, 2010

So, I haven’t written in a while… but after reading George Carlin’s autobiography “Last Words” (released after he died), it made me realize the goals I have been working for, and gave me a renewed sense of needing to DO something.

In the final chapter, he talks about wanting to do a Broadway show, as sort of a finalization to his career (and sense of self-worth), but obviously didn’t get a chance to do that.  It reminded me of my dream to do a Broadway show as well, although mine is a re-creation of Frank Zappa’s “Joe’s Garage”.  These two people have gone a considerable way towards shaping the man I have become, and I feel in certain ways a connection to both artists.  I was fortunate enough to see George while he was still alive, but didn’t begin to appreciate Zappa until he had been gone for a few years.  It was my shared dream with Carlin that re-affirms that what I want is obtainable, as long as I make it happen.

In saying that, it has all given me (even) more of an appreciation of myself, and that I have a long journey still ahead of me.  Remembering GC and FZ reminds me to fight for what I believe in and to always speak my mind, even when it isn’t the most popular thing being said.

As I approach the next phase of my life, which begins with my move to New York City at the end of the summer, I still feel a sense of living up to other people’s goals of me (including, and ESPECIALLY my mother and aunt, who have been the most influential people in my life), but also in people that know me.  I’ve seen people and friends come and go, and realize that what we do with ourselves is also to prove to them that we’re not just completely full of shit, but that we are who we say we are.  It’s for the lovers, the haters, and anyone else who has ever taken a personal interest in our existence.

So, I suppose it’s time to start getting down to business; the reason I feel like I’ve been living in Pembroke for the past two years (why else would I be here?)  I finally graduated (and will actually receive my degree once I complete an internship), so it’s time to start putting this crazy plan of mine into motion.

As of right now, my personal goals look something like this (also a good way of sticking to my goals):

  1. Move to NYC
  2. Learn more about the movie business while working.
  3. Get a Master’s degree (for the purposes of #2)
  4. Eventually move into working as a cameraman, as a means to attain my ultimate goal as a director (or director of photography, I’d be happy with that, too)
  5. Find a good woman
  6. Make her my wife
  7. Make some babies
  8. Keep all of us happy

(not necessarily in that order)…

And later:

  1. Write a novel

10.  Develop it into a screenplay

11.  Make a movie (hopefully based on my novel)

12.  Turn “Joe’s Garage” into a Broadway musical (with Ray King as the Central Scrutinizer, as promised)

Just a little quick rambling… I need to start doing this more often (as long as it doesn’t distract me from reaching my goals!)  Time to get back to work on my life…  Thanks for read